Bright and early this morning while both getting ready to head out the door for work (we still have only one car so I have been on drop off and pick up duty) Garrett looked at me and smiled and said, "We've figured this one car thing out pretty quickly, and we've figured this new work schedule out pretty quickly too with my new job. I think we're gonna be ok."
You see my huge fear when Garrett quit his job with my company and started working somewhere else was that we were going to lose all of our fun time connecting: the laughs while we commuted, the chats during our afternoon walks -- OMG WE WILL NEVER SEE EACH OTHER ANYMORE!!! When our second car went into the shop last week after our other car had already been in the shop for a week Garrett had a baby panic attack about how we would keep living with only one car -- OMG HOW WILL WE SURVIVE WITHOUT TWO CARS, IT'S NOT POSSIBLE WITH OUR WILDLY MODERN LIFE!!!
So anyway --spoiler alert-- we are surviving! And we are still connected! And our wildly modern life has adapted with only one car! In some ways things are actually better because with a little smart scheduling on Garrett's part I drop him off in the morning and pick him up around lunch and we get to chit chat and whatnot. It's a nice interuption in a long day of work, and we both get where we need to go, and can still hang out and share what's going on in our days. And we have not even missed a second car sitting in the garage all day.
We were so quick to be fearful of what change was going bring, and of course it has brought some challenges. But it made me realize that we are both so quick to underestimate our ability to adapt. This doesn't really have a point, I'm sorry to say, but I guess I just wanted to quickly remind myself that change is only scary if I let it be. I've been so negative around these parts lately I just wanted to put it down on paper (ha! or the internet) that instead of choosing to be stressed or fearful, I want to continue to channel that energy into building my own confidence in myself, my decisions, my reactions,my relationship, and my life. It seems so much more effective than worrying about what potentially lies ahead, so damnnit I'm going to try! I may have said I don't like change, but if you've been around here long enough you know I love a good challenge.
"The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one's 'own' or 'real' life. The truth is, of course, that what one regards as interruptions are precisely one's life." -- C.S. Lewis